Feeing very down

Last nite meet up with some forum mate (camera)
Learn a lot of hardware things from them, they are really experts.
I felt very small and useless. Gave me advice on the camera which i should look at instead of the one i wanted to buy.
Its true old hardware are uncomparable to new things.
Now my mind is in a blank so much data to analysis.
In the nite i though of the reason for shooting - what am i looking for
12 mid nite rounding here 1 am rowing there head getting heavy, throat pain pain
dam it is back again the stupid throatache and headache.

Feeling very down with all these sickness with me. Very sleepy feeling down and wan to cry,
"why am i shooting, what i wan , should i give up"
"Camera should i give up"
"no mood to think any more PnS ?? "
Mood of the day
still thinking of sentosa. Also operation peeling is 99% completed -_-